Getting There!

Monday, April 16, 2012

Seven and Walking

Eating less and moving more has brought me down 7 pounds from where I have started losing my regained weight. Once I cross the 10 pounds down mark, I will really feel like I am on my way. I haven't had an easy road in terms of perfect circumstances to eat well. I have had a few stressful situations, such as a relationship problem with a friend, my birthday and facing the food that entails, as well as a 3 day choir tour.

All in all, I am quite please with how I ate in these circumstances. I am very pleased that I am back to walking outside. The weather has become milder and my one running partner is too pregnant to run, so she is happy to walk. My other walking partner is willing to walk with us on her non run days, so it is working out quite nicely. Perhaps one day I will build up to running again as it made me feel so athletically accomplished but right now it looks like too high of a mountain to climb!

It's been good to have time with my friends again as we walk together. We talk about everything under the sun and it's so nice to have friends to share things with. It really refreshes me. Having walked a few days straight, I am feeling far less fatigued. I came home from our choir tour feeling like I was 90 years old - tired, achy and cranky.

I am keeping my eating plan very simple. I know from my past experience that keeping it simple and not clouding it up with diet rules allowed me to focus on WHY I overeat. In the end, that is the root of what must change - my relationship with food and what I think it provides in my life. The fact is, it is only capable of feeding physical hunger. It does not feed a hungry soul or a hungry heart.

Breakfast is generally eggs and spinach, lunch is gluten free crackers with hummus, chicken and some fruit, supper is whatever I am cooking, even with a scoop of ice cream for dessert on occasion. I cook healthy meals and when I make pasta, I prepare gluten free varieties for my daughter. She has adapted a gluten free lifestyle and it has made a huge difference in her life. I can't say I felt any different eating gluten free, but I do make gluten free choices in terms of crackers and pasta.

Currently, exercise is simply walking at a fast pace. I can really feel it in my legs muscles and I am huffing and puffing, so I know I am working my heart and body.

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne

Monday, March 26, 2012

Quick 20 Results

Today was my weigh in day for my quick 20. I was down 3 pounds, but at that rate, it's not going to be the quickest of 20. How I miss the old days, where I could drop 5-6 pounds in a week with a little effort. I was told weight loss would become harder in my 40's and so it has! Three pounds is three pounds however, and I've got 17 to go before I tackle my next small, obtainable goal.

To lose these 3 pounds, I power walked. I ate 3 well balanced meals, even enjoying a cupcake and an ice cream treat during the week. I favour a spinach omelet for breakfast and lunch/supper vary with what is happening in my life.

I am really not focusing on the bigger picture or the reasons I find myself having to lose weight again. It's like I don't have the emotional energy to figure it all out and explain it. But, if I do nothing, I will just put more on of what I lost and that would be tragic. So, for now, I am committed to losing a quick 20!

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne

Monday, March 19, 2012

Quick 20

Obviously my weight hasn't changed very dramatically, or I'd be posting, sharing it all with you! It's so much easier to share when the news is good, isn't it? There is something shameful about having to admit that things aren't moving along like they should be.

I am not going to focus on an end goal at this point. Truly, my goal is to live a life that is healthy - eating and exercising in moderation and achieving a healthy weight, which I can maintain. Solely focusing on my overall goal is not making the scale move very quickly at the moment.

I have decided to make my goal 2o pounds down. My overall goal is not going to be my current focus because somehow maintaining the healthy weight eludes me every time. It feels like I am working towards a goal I cannot seem to acheive. It is impossible to maintain a healthy weight until I am at a healthy weight. Therefore, my goal is to lose 20 pounds and reevaluate from there. The big picture is simply too much to handle at the moment.

Monday will be my weigh in day until I reach 20 pounds down and I will post my weight loss here.

Is there anyone else out there who simply wants to lose a quick 20 for now?

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne


Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Hello, My Old Friend

As is the case with much of North America, we have been enjoying unseasonably warm, sunny weather. I am off work for March Break and therefore there is no excuse to avoid exercise. I visited my old friend tonight - my running route on the canal path.

My old friend has changed somewhat, with improvements to the path access from my house. I did not run, but power walked my 6K route. For now, that is exercise that I can mentally and physically handle and I know that walking is excellent for weight loss and weight maintenance. I know that one day I will start to run between two hydro poles and so on, but for now, I am happy to be power walking.

When I saw runners passing by, I looked at them with awe. I remembered my old friend running. I remember the exhilaration at succeeding at what others viewed as impossible. I had some feelings of regret, having giving up my endurance, but I know it can be discovered again. I reminded myself that I only lost 10 pounds while running. The first 80 pounds came off with walking!

I remembered that feeling of feeling slimmer after a work out. I honestly feel that my tummy is smaller after that brisk walk, whilst focusing on my core area. That feeling is a welcome old friend.

You know how getting together with some old friends, you feel like you can pick up right where you left off? That's exactly the feeling I have in regards to eating and exercising right now.

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne

Sunday, March 11, 2012

SeasonsMy continued

I love the change of seasons. I especially appreciate them having lived in Bangladesh for three and a half years. Bangladesh claims seven seasons but if you ask me, they all start with HOT! I remember the first Autumn we returned to Niagara from Dhaka. The colours were astounding. The change in seasons brings me energy and new focus.

Today was a beautiful Spring day in Niagara and we went on a hike down the Niagara Gorge. We are so lucky to have such beauty only minutes from our home. It was quite the hike back up and I was feeling my lack of exercise. I thought about Sharon and her love of hiking. One could get into shape quickly going on regular hikes. My muscles burned, but it was good to feel they were still there!

Struggling up the rocky hill, I remember why I long to get back into shape. This is the season! I am off work for two weeks and I can take advantage of the time to focus on eating well and implementing walking work outs back into my life. I know that one of these walks, I will start running between two hydro poles again. We all know what can happen...another set of hydro poles, a km, 2 km and so on!

It's been a gradual return to living healthily again. It hasn't been the same cold turkey approach I had the strength to live in 2009. But, the change is in the right direction. The Spring has come gradually, but it is coming. My continued weight loss is happening gradually, but it is coming.

Hooray for the seasons of life!

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

When Life Doesn't Go My Way

It feels like life has not gone my way since I decided to recommit to eating moderately! The scale hasn't moved at the rate I anticipated. And, there have been unexpected curve balls thrown into my expectation of life's happenings.

We have been preparing for our 17 year old daughter to have her tonsils and adenoids removed today. She has long suffered with strep throat, tonsillitis and large tonsil stones. Various events have stood in her way to having them removed - generally rowing over the past four years. The recovery for this surgery at her age is 2 weeks rest, 3 weeks from any physical activity. She was so excited at the thought of her tonsils being removed and being pain free in the near future.

She also has SVT, which I thought was a harmless condition, causing heart palpitations and dizziness during an episode.

She attended her first class this morning as school is always her first priority. We picked up some lunch for me to eat at the hospital, some magazines and off we went. On our walk to admitting we saw an employee who is a friend and she gave a friendly hug. When we reached admitting, we saw another friend and although she didn't serve us, it was so nice to see a friendly face and wave. We boarded the elevator to the Peads floor and literally the greeting face was our second cousin, Nurse Danielle with a huge smile on her face! She was our admitting nurse and was amazing at preparing my daughter. She even made sure she found pants so her bottom end did not show with the hospital gown!

The next coincidence was that my daughter knew her roommate as they had gone to driving school together. She was lovely to visit with. Everything was going so well!

Once we were taken to the surgical floor, various Dr's went over her chart. She was gowned up, ready to go, waiting for her IV as a Dr. questioned her about her SVT episodes. Next thing you know, the anesthesiologist refused to perform the surgery until the SVT is looked into more closely. I explained that we were told it was not serious, but he said with the frequency of her episodes, it is. My daughter began to cry as this is her one chance to get them out before University Rowing begins, missing the least amount of school possible because of March Break. I asked for a second opinion and got three opinions! They all agreed that she must be examined in a larger region and cleared before they are willing to operate.

Life. I can't tell you how disappointed we were. Obviously I don't want to put my daughter at risk because of swollen tonsils, which is non life threatening, but we are worried there has been a huge overreaction. In the end, we have to trust that God knew exactly what would occur today.

It was about 2:00pm when we left the hospital, after being talked to by three specialists for a good 20 minutes. My daughter, who has been gluten free and symptom free of her GERD for two weeks asked if she could eat my sub!?! She had nothing to eat that day in preparation for her surgery and I thought it would be a good experiment with the wheat. Within an hour, her body was covered in a rash and she had terrible indigestion!

How ironic that the food that was to comfort her made her ill! We have worked it out in our heart and minds now and I noticed on her facebook a status that says, "Trust that everything has a reason. Look for the reason rather than focusing on the chaos. Keep your mind open to the bigger picture." I am proud of her.

She certainly learned that a sub does not solve anything! She is not in the least overweight but it was interesting to watch what she thought would comfort, make her unwell.

I cannot control how fast these unwanted pounds are going to melt, but I can choose not to turn to sub sandwiches when life doesn't go my way. Tomorrow we see our family doctor for a referral to a Cardiologist in a larger city center. I am hoping things start to go our way!

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne





Monday, February 27, 2012

Pain in the...

For the past three weeks I have been having significant pain in what I believe to be my right kidney. Just when I think I haven't experienced pains in a while, I am attacked by sharp pain in one isolated area, that seems to later disappear. I keep putting off a visit to the Dr., thinking it will go away, but it is time to make an appointment.

Focusing on change has not brought the results I had hoped, disappointing me. I had really hoped to see my new decade by the 1st of March, but it won't happen. I have to kick things into high gear to get moving. I think I need to implement exercise back into my life. Starting next week, I will have some time off work because my oldest is having her tonsils and adenoids removed and then I have two weeks off for March break. That allows for three weeks of serious time to focus on exercise and eating well.

I continue to search to find peace in this area and I know that peace comes from One and One alone. It is the direction I seek and choose to follow.

Eating less, moving more,
Dawne